ELLLLLLLLL- AYYYYYYYYYYYE....PYAH!

I think I lost some good friends.

Clara told me I frustrate her? I don't know, but I really don't feel the need to treat her extra special...I don't know. I'm very sure I've lost most of these feelings for her. I thought that is a good thing?

To be honest, she told me that I am a trustworthy person to her, but she's not for me. I can't trust her. She's very naive and in a way, she hurts people by saying things and doing things. I remember specifically telling her not to mention certain things to people because it hurts them, and she would ask, "Why?" and then turns around and asks that person.

Honestly, I don't think very highly of her anymore. I think i tried really hard and that's why it turned out to be a hard thing to let go for me.

Some other people, like Wilson and Melissa. I don't see them anymore, nor do i know them much, but things happen.

Like what i once said to Tuff, "Friends are farts into the wind!" as funny as how that would be, it's kind of true. Friends don't last too long and only some friends walk with you forever.

I left last summer, and came back with people changed and different and I guess it was ahrd to cope with. I realized though, God is the most important for me now.

I'm glad I have a church family.

Btw, sorry Leslie, I wanted you to go to cell that day for a reason i can't tell you. I suck.
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ACADEC! Basically, 6 months worth of work came down to one day's worth of 30 minute interval tests! haha, but it was really worth it! I'm glad I got to spend time with my awesome ACADEC team, even placing 7th for the first time in any round! haha

We beat La Puente, Glen A. Wilson, and Rowland. What a great day! We ate, we talked, we photographed, we cheered, we laugh! I will never forget experiences like these. Once again, being on the USC campus reinforces my understanding that the awesome campus of USC is indeed flawless within a ghetto neighborhood. haha

I am hoping to get at least THREE MEDALS this year. I don't have as much of a chance this eyar since we went up to Division II, but the studying and stuff really did help and I did go through the tests with quick relief and speed.

LA Pyah!!! We got it right! hahaha

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Some random thoughts:

• I missed the premier episode of LOST! OH WELL.
• I really want to own a horse so I don't have to rely on Melissa.
• I really want to learn more about horseback riding.
• The only thing stopping me is the price of renting a stall+tack.
• I miss riding on a galloping horse and jumping over poles.
• I need to add more salt in my fried rice.
• Depression randomly hits me throughout the day, the week..
• I am looking forward to Winter Formal!
• I have work that day, get off at 4:30pm
• I need to make sure and call the base so that I can get my military ID.
• The task of obtaining my military ID is 6 months late.
• I need to do push ups because I have a PT test on Saturday.
• OH! I think I should start selling things on ebay again.
• I think teacher underestimate the maturity potential of their students.
• I want to buy an erhu and play violin music.
• I have a crappy zhonghu, but it's the viola equivalent, which I don't play real well.
• My ear is trained to C instruments.
• I am easily jealous, but I realize I am good at hiding it.
• Actually, I'm good at hiding a lot of emotions which is why I explode once in a while.
• Acadec is over.
• We're not touching the meat of Choir, finally!
• Band is sort of a joke and I guess I concede my feelings with Leslie's.
• Helena by MCR is one of my favorite songs now.
• I'm praying for the church choir.
• There's minimal interest in joining the choir mainly because of the lack of notice.
• I need to collect my 40-50 bucks from Stipo; she owes me prize money from last eyar's web design competition.
• Mr. Schmus is 100% into the social aspects of politics, but I think he needs to let the evils of politics take it's course.
• Laging offered me money to repad flutes and piccolos.
• Fact: I re-padded my flute and saved $120.00
• Fact: I re-padded my piccolo and saved $98.00
• Fact: I took apart my flute and cleaned it and saved myself $60.00
• Fact: I bought flutes and fixed them, then resold them for a higher price when I was a Freshman-Sophomore.
• Divorce affects the offspring in diverse ways depending on the family, but the only thing for sure we know, the impact is great.
• Broken families can only be healed by the Holy Spirit.
• I will make sure to act accordingly at the Winter Formal dance.
• No dirty stuff.
• This will be my fourth dance.
• I'm glad I'm going with Caitlin, she's a God loving girl.
• "Life is like a jar of jelly beans, you never know what you're gonna get!"-Andrew Yip
• "In my case, I got sour apple popcorn with some chocolate fudge orange citrus.
• I love my cell group: LOL!
• I have to find a spot for Chemistry 101 at Rio Hondo and make up credits!
• Goodwin says he can easily get me in a Microecnomics class at the HLPUSD Adult school.
• I think the differences between Kevin Wang and I are slowly dissolving, and I'm glad to rid of the poison in my heart.
• Horseshoes are lucky, and I actually have four horseshoes sitting on my desk with nails in them still.
• My house looks really nice now. All we need is wooden flooring, some painting here and there, glass there and that, some new lighting, and it'll be done!
• I read KJV because not only because I think it's a more direct translation, I actually understand the wording and I love how this version just reveals itself before me!